Gurus all around you


Simple ego checks


What lurks beneath

The unconscious can be a scary place but it doesn't have to be. It could be fun to hug monsters. A page from my journal:


A healthy circle of people who can love you

It's a painful aspect of life when we are faced with people who do not accept us for who we are. This quote is a very good affirmation. If we are on a path to choose healthy loving options we sometimes have to release people who don't have the capacity to love us like we deserve to be loved. But to add to his quote, something I learned from a woman who has helped me a lot on my journey... We don't always have to cut them out of our lives. We can reserve our inner circle for the ones who we are able to share and connect with lovingly and place the others to the back of our personal crowd. That has been a very healthy tool. I also love what Daniele says about no feeling guilty. I often find myself and others feeling obligated to play the role expected by these people who mistreat me. This is likely because thy have triggered a deep wound. But it is also because of them that we can practice staying true to our deeper self that benefits from seeing eye to eye and heart to heart. My wish for us all today... Heart to heart seeing.


Full Moon Musings



Apology note from ego

I am sorry for chasing after illusions today. I will try harder tomorrow.


How to manifest your heart's desires

You have to be strong,
no, no.... you have to be soft
You have to visualize it, work hard at it, pray for it
Scream away all your anger about not having it so you are free and clear and open to receive it
You have to chant it's mantra and affirm it into being
Make a vision board with images that look like it
so the Universe knows
But let go of wanting it so you aren't tied up in the future
Want it badly but be present and don't think about it.
Do several of the above action items so that you can let it go and wait for it to arrive in it's own Divine timing, 
And after you are done with all of that
let yourself spiral right out of control
arrive into the crevices, the cracks, the empty parts
that desire something different than the part of you who made the vision board and chanted the mantras
Arrive into the place within you beneath those places
and beg for answers
explore the cracks like a tourist
take photos, write in your travel journal
and listen more
and listen past the sound
until your skin knows the answers
and your muscles awaken to the memory of what is most essential and necessary for the next stage of your personal evolution.  
And whatever they say...
do that.



Very good advice from Hafiz

We have not come here to take prisoners,
But to surrender ever more deeply
To freedom and joy.
We have not come into this exquisite world
To hold ourselves hostage from love.
Run my dear,
From anything
That may not strengthen
Your precious budding wings.
Run like hell my dear,
From anyone likely 
To put a sharp knife
Into the sacred, tender vision
Of your beautiful heart.
We have a duty to befriend
Those aspects of obedience
That stand outside of our house
And shout to our reason
"O please, O please,
Come out and play."
For we have not come here to take prisoners
Or to confine our wondrous spirits,
But to experience ever and ever more deeply
Our divine courage, freedom and 




Vulnerability is Beautiful

This video is one of the most moving pieces of art I have ever seen.  In the video, performance artist Marina abramovic is performing one of her works called 'The Artist is present'.  What she doesn't know is that her ex long time lover whom she hasn't seen for a long time will be one of her guests who sits before her.  What happens is that we get to see a moment of beautiful love and vulnerability without any words.  


Mind stretching

The mind can be tricky, especially when it listens to only what it wants to hear or what feels safe for its belief structure. I like practicing going beyond what feels safe to assume and finding what else could be true. My goal is always to find that true place of acceptance, especially for that which I most wrestle with, because that means a deeper embodiment of inner peace.


Honoring the earth within

It is important work to do... To heal our earth, perhaps our relationship to the earth, how we treat our home. It is important to also work on caring for the earth in our own bodies, our own home.


Thoughts on Metaphor

"The metaphor is the mask of God through which eternity is to be experienced. . . . In India, I have seen a red ring put around a stone, and then the stone becomes regarded as an incarnation of the mystery. Usually you think of things in practical terms, but you could think of anything in terms of its mystery. For example, this is a watch, but it is also a thing in being, you could put it down, draw a ring around it, and regard it in that dimension. . . . The watch becomes the center for a meditation, the center of the intelligible mystery of being, which is everywhere. This watch is now the center of the universe. It is the still point in the turning world."
Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth

To see the things in your world as hopes and symbols of other things not yet seen coming to greet you

To look the stuff you encounter as doorways or portals to personal meaning

When I have decided to look upon the world I find mytself in as if it were a magic playground, the discoveries I find and conincidences become stranger than fiction and yet very real to the deeper more ancient parts of me

This is that, but it is also this other thing that has something to say to you.  How do you explain that if you haven't experienced it first hand.  It is just that not everything is what it really is.  But sometimes it is.  And those other times is is a beggar from your unconscious, projected out before you, inviting you in for tea.  



We are a matrix of dark & light


Nature has all the answers


Today while on a walk in nature I witnessed

light in its limitless expression

and these soul mates


Sometimes the answer

Sometimes the best answer is to lay it all down and rest in the uncertainty, the vulnerable even uncomfortable humble place where it seems that what you want is so impossible (right now) that you relinquish the chase.  And there can be this very nourishing sweetness in that letting go.  Surrender has become such a close friend.


Pondering the value of embracing the non-pretty

But, for me, heroism and performance is not about “I’m beautiful and let me show you how beautiful I am,” which is a very traditional, conventional approach to heroism. It’s about saying
“This thing is breaking down but I’m going to try it anyway. I’m going to persist beyond the place of it staying pretty or being coherent because we’re not coherent. We’re not pretty. We are multiple bodies. Our beauty rests right alongside our ugliness. Our desire rests right along our acceptance. Our power rests right alongside our vulnerability.”
- Miguel Gutierrez


When I loved myself enough...

This is an excerpt from a short book written by Alison McMillen

When I loved myself enough I quit having to be right which makes being wrong meaningless.

When I loved myself enough I learned to grieve for the hurts in life when they happen instead of making my heart heavy from lugging them around.

When I loved myself enough I forgave myself for all the times I thought I wasn’t good enough.

When I loved myself enough things got real quite inside. Real nice.

When I loved myself enough I began listening to the wisdom of my body. It speaks so clearly through its fatigue, sensitivities, aversions and hungers.

When I loved myself enough I quit fearing my fear.

When I loved myself enough I quit rehashing the past and worrying about the future – which keeps me in the present where aliveness lives.

When I loved myself enough I realized my mind can torment and deceive me, but in the service of my heart it is a great and noble ally.

When I loved myself enough I began to taste freedom.

If you loved yourself enough what would you do?


How to be...


Beautiful Musings

POETRY: From the January/February 2013 issue of Orion Magazine

The Fog Town School of Thought

They should have taught us birds and trees
in school, they should have taught us beauty
and weaving bees and had a class
on listening and standing alone—
the children should have studied light
reflected from a spider web,
we should have learned the branches of streams
spread out like fingers or the veins
of a leaf—we should have learned the sky
is the tallest steeple, we should have known
a hill is a voice inside the sky—
O, we should have had our school
on top and stayed until the night
for the fog to bloom in the hollows and rise
like cotton spinning off a wheel—
we should have learned a dream—a child’s
and even still a man’s—is made
from fog and love, my word, you’d think
with the book in front of us we should
have learned how Fog Town got its name.